Friends
"Friends". Such ambiguity compacted into just this one word.
Somehow, I feel like your words about this term hold some truth. Expectations changes and what we used to consider as qualities associated with "friends" then may not be the same today. Probably due to our changing needs. Or simply because humans are complex and largely unpredictable creatures.
At the moment, I crave for soul connnection. This might have been an innate craving but I suppressed it for so long I mistook it as... Non-existent. But now, it's inevitable. I need to connect, to form bonds to the deepest soul level possible, something that will never disapper even when we do. Something that is hard to achieve but worth hoping for...
But working towards such goals involves some sort of risk-taking. Am I really willing to do so? Display of affection is very hard for me. In fact, just the mere thought of possibly becoming dependent on someone else, a perishable figure, is frightening. What is worse is that affection may not always be a mutual thing. I can love you with all my heart but you may hate me with all of yours, without me knowing. That scares me a lot.
Am I in search of THE friend or THE friendship?
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