Change
Even after talking about it to many others, it has never truly occurred to me how much this have changed me. I guess, part of me has been well-aware of the changes but I never really felt the need to come to terms with how much I am letting this affect me. Ultimately, I will have to do so now... I shall.
Looking back, I realised that deep down, I have always wanted such a change between us to happen. But it never occured to me that I was the obstacle to the change I wanted to get. It seemed as if I have always rationalized my actions towards you to the situations that we were in, without realizing just how it has all been just ME.
Back then, I did not really know if it was a good choice to make. Even though I thought and KNEW that it was the best option, it hurt so bad that I honestly had no thought of about really making the change. Because really, no matter how much I tell myself, this means so much to me. And yet again, it was just ME.
With that being said, I really hope that you will be a part of the past that I will not hang on for too long. Because it has always been ME in what was supposed to be a two-way bond. And just like what they all say... I dont deserve to be treated this way nor feel this way anymore.
With that being said, I really hope that you will be a part of the past that I will not hang on for too long. Because it has always been ME in what was supposed to be a two-way bond. And just like what they all say... I dont deserve to be treated this way nor feel this way anymore.
