Eighteen

18 April 2016

Eighteen

Today marks a new chapter for me. As such, I decided to write about this day yearly to remind myself of all the people, those who I have known for long and for a while only, who have touched my heart.

To start things off, I was pleasantly surprised when the whole lot of wolves celebrated this day. Not to mention, the wolf pups too. The strong sense of togetherness that I felt when I was with them was like no other. I am so thankful for you guys. Special shoutout to those who personally wished me and hugged/ high fived etc me! Physical contact is one of my top few favourite language of love so YAY THANKS

Brother Bird. What a love-hate relationship we have. Actually, it's not hate but random irritated moments. Nonetheless, I got to say that you are one of few I can chill with in class. Even though our differences are drastic at times, we are kinda chill about it so we cool. Plus, I LOVE YOUR PRESENT much love 

My angel buddy. You are probably the most precious thing that happened to me in 2016 so far. We only met and you treat me so well. I am genuinely greatful being paured with you and really, thank you so so much for everything that have happened and more to come. Hopefully, we will meet up often even after we get back to our normal lives. Thank you so much for your present! I will use it well and spend a lot heh

((Of course wishes from the family have a special place in my heart. Especially, the little one ))

Today, I am filled with warmth and love and blessings. I am happy for I am yet alive on this day. Thank you Allah for letting me enjoy this day yet again. Amin.

OES

3 April 2016
OES

Self-expression.

One of the important concepts of being a social being that I have yet to achieve.

Others do not know how much I look up to them. They do not know how much I struggle, trying to articulate my thoughts and feelings. I cannot seem to put any depth into my words. My words were taken for granted... I ignored my words. I neglected my thoughts and feelings. I rejected myself.

I am hoping that posting this will keep on reminding me about my goal to work towards self-expression. With high hopes, Operation Eye Storm shall officially commence.

Let's keep on striving! I can do this! I will achieve this!

Strong (Sonna Rele)

2 April 2016

Strong (Sonna Rele)

For you...

Let your smile light up the sky
Keep your spirit soaring high

Trust in your heart and your soul shines forever and ever
Hold fast to kindness, your light shines forever and ever
I believe in you and in me
We are strong

When once upon a time in stories and in rhyme
A moment you can shine and wear your own crown
Be the one that rescues you
Through the clouds you'll see the blue

A bird all alone on the wind can still be strong and sing
Sing.

 

You are strong. Happy 18th, little princess.

cr: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/sonnarele/strong.html 

Little Princess

1 April 2016
Little Princess

So many sorries to say.
So many stories to write.
So many storms to survive.

I will say to you.
I will write for you.
I will survive with you.

So please...

Come back, my little princess.

I miss you.

Tomorrow will be yours. Like how it should be.
Tomorrow will be special. Like how it should be.

So please...

Be back for tomorrow, my little princess.

I miss you.

Reincarnation (JL)

9 March 2016
Reincarnation (JL)

With a newly found desire to be not afraid or ashamed of who I was... I... I will start anew.

 I hope to stop the tears, and the pain
Even in bright sunlight that made me shine
I'm gonna start anew while hidden in the quiet shadow

Even now, I can not feel the warmth
Even the way to smile seems long-forgotten
I'm gonna start anew while hidden in the serene shadow

cr: http://thecherrya.blogspot.sg/2015/11/k-lyric-jl-reincarnation-cheo-yong-2.html

Friends

24 February 2016
Friends

"Friends". Such ambiguity compacted into just this one word.

Somehow, I feel like your words about this term hold some truth. Expectations changes and what we used to consider as qualities associated with "friends" then may not be the same today. Probably due to our changing needs. Or simply because humans are complex and largely unpredictable creatures.

At the moment, I crave for soul connnection. This might have been an innate craving but I suppressed it for so long I mistook it as... Non-existent. But now, it's inevitable. I need to connect, to form bonds to the deepest soul level possible, something that will never disapper even when we do. Something that is hard to achieve but worth hoping for...

But working towards such goals involves some sort of risk-taking. Am I really willing to do so? Display of affection is very hard for me. In fact, just the mere thought of possibly becoming dependent on someone else, a perishable figure, is frightening. What is worse is that affection may not always be a mutual thing. I can love you with all my heart but you may hate me with all of yours, without me knowing. That scares me a lot.

Am I in search of THE friend or THE friendship?

Puzzle

15 February 2016

Puzzle

I don't really know. I honestly am not sure of what I expect from this. I mean, it doesn't really matter to me if others find out about this or not. There is no meaning to this being found out.

Is this an attempt to what they call 'self-discovery'? Since, I did and will still continue to write about some of my random thoughts and feelings about life, in general. 

Whatever it is. I hope to find that out. What really started all of this. And what is driving me to continue this. It could be the key to solving the puzzle. My life puzzle.

One thing is for sure though. I hope that this will be able to last forever. To laugh, smile or cry about the things that I thought about and were (or are) concerned about. So that I can see myself grow. So I have something to remember myself by. So that I can find and solve myself. Myself who is unknown to the world. Myself who is unknown to those who know me. Myself who is unknown to me. Myself...